So here I am, next to myself three years younger. I look at myself back then and it makes me want to cry. I was such an innocent little girl with high hopes and low expectations of people. The first thing I would say would be “Don’t you dare let anyone step all over you” because honestly, that has happened a lot to me. It makes me really upset to say that, but I have been screwed over by tons of guys and lots of ‘friends’ too. Although that has made me who I am today, I could have gone without all the heartbreak and stress. I would also tell myself to stay away from the bad boys! because if you think they’re bad, they are most likely bad. In my case, I have been involved with this same bad boy for about three years now, and he has caused me a horrendous amount of heartache and self-consciousness. He did hurt me a lot, and he continues to hurt me now, but I do appreciate that he made me stronger. I believe that every person is a life lesson: he taught me that I don’t need all the drama, I just need a nice guy that will hang out and be a good time. Another thing I would tell Young Me is to try harder at field hockey. If I tried harder, maybe got lessons, and put my heart and soul into the sport, I could be playing in August with a scholarship to an awesome school with life-long friends and a sport that I enjoy tremendously. I would say that as much as math kills me, don’t ever feel like you can’t do it. Not only does that apply to math, but anything. I learned that if I really put my head and heart into something, I can do it. I would tell myself to be involved in anything and everything that has to do with my class. Join clubs, go on class trips, participate. I would tell myself that no matter what, do not conform because you think you have to. Still to this day, I don’t wear the same things that everyone wears. I don’t do things because “they’re trendy,” I do things because I want to. I would tell myself to be friendly to everyone, but at the same time, don’t take any shit. I would tell myself not to date any guys, because all they really do is create drama and you won’t fall in (real) love in high school. I think that with all the advice I’ve given myself, I’ll be set. Not to jinx anything, but my high school years haven’t been too consumed with drama or bad things; it’s safe to say I had an amazing high school experience. Right now when I am in my prime is when I am realizing that I’m done. I’ll be done on June 8th and I’ll be at The University of Delaware on August 25th. While I am sad that high school is over, I had an amazing time this past four years and I don’t really regret anything.
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