Blog 10 - Litany of Deep Questions

Why do we do blogs? Why would a blog topic be about questions? Is my teacher going to do something crazy like ask us to answer all these questions? Why do we go to class? Why do we even go to school? What is the purpose of education? What do I want to be when I grow up? What college should I attend? What happens if I don’t get accepted anywhere? Will I live at home all my life? What will my parents say? Will they be ashamed of me? Why would I even think I can’t get accepted anywhere? Why do I doubt myself? When will my acceptance letters come? How can I be more positive about college and growing up? Why do I put such a negative connotation on the word “college”? What will it be like leaving home for real for the first time? How will my parents deal with not having any kids around? Will they be happy? Will they be sad? Will they miss me? Will I remember to call them a lot? Will I be homesick and call too much? Will I have so much fun I don’t call at all? What are they going to do on the nights they are both not home and no one can cook for them like I do? Why did I make such an awesome dinner tonight? Why was I that bored that I made such an extravagant meal that it took three hours to make? Why did I make amazing lasagna, Caesar salad, garlic bread, and for dessert, banana bread? Do my parents realize how good of a daughter I try to be? When did I really lose their trust in the first place? Why did I ever think it was okay to lie to them over a boy? Why would I date such a dumb asshole boy in the first place? Why are boys so tempted to lie and cheat on innocent girls like myself? What is it that I don’t have that she does? Why does he always go back to her? Why do I even care? Where is my prince charming? Will I even find someone I end up loving? Will I die next to him? Will he sweep me off my feet? Will he protect me and never let anything bad happen to me? Will he be an amazing guy like my father? Will I get married? When? Will I have children? How many? Will I live to see my children’s children? What will the world be like then? Will technology have taken over? Will the world be so advanced that I will resemble my mother and her technology-impaired behaviors? How does she not know how to check her voicemail? Why am I so ignorant to think that? What was it like back in the old days when my parents were growing up? Were they good kids, or did they give their parents grief? What was it like when my grandparents were growing up? What is it like in heaven? Why did my grandfather have to die before he knew how much I truly adored him? Why didn’t he stay alive long enough to see me grow up? What will happen when everyone around me has passed? What will happen when I die? What will happen when all of the human population is wiped out? Then who will write these blogs?